Mid Way!!!

Well, we are closer to our move. We have already gone to the site and gone house hunting. This was after pawning off our children to unsuspecting friends. Little did they know what we had been dealing with. (That is the subject for a whole new set of blogs that I don't have time for!!!) Anyway, we did find a house, put in a bid and were accepted, now we just have to wait for the paperwork nightmare. Also during this little drift in life, we have football playoffs and the holidays!!! Part of me wants to say "Oh hell", the other part wants to quit my job and live life to the fullest!!!! Needless to say, I'm still working and balancing like a mad woman!!!!!! Did I happen to mention what all else needs to be done between Thanksgiving and us moving? Well, let me fill you in!!!!! Rachel has 2 Christmas parades, one of them in downtown Dallas plus ROTC Military Ball & all that goes with that to get ready for including shopping for a dress. Anthony is in the throws of football playoffs and spending time with my ex husband who helped raise him, plus ROTC Military Ball and FINALS!!!!!! Garett is just along for the ride and has the Ball & Finals!!!! No, I really don't think I have enough going on, because I also have to seperate all of the household items from what the movers will pack from what I don't want them touching. We have decided that we are kicking Rachel out of her room to use it as a staging area. (We are soooooo Military!!!) I have already dug up most of my bulbs that I am transplanting down to Florida. I still have Cannas & Elephant Ears to go and then the couple of actual plants that I am taking down. Plus my roses, very important. I bought each for a reason and they are very symbolic to me.

We are doing little things around the house to get ready. For example, making it a point to throw multiple papers in the recycle bin daily. This cleans out my trash and forces me into making decisions about my paperwork. Having Rodney around has really helped. If he's not actually doing something, then he's putting a glass with alcohol in my hands and forcing me to relax!!!! This is very key to me being accomplished, I think. Our relationship has launched into the next designated season. Very strange, if you just think about it, but if you're living it, it seems more likely. We sit in our swing and marvel at where we were and where we've come from and where we're going!!!!!! It's fun~!!!!!!!!! And this moves me into my next thing I wanted to discuss.

MEN!!!!! They are such fabulous creatures!!!! This is nothing against anyone that I've ever had a relationship with, but I think I was meant to be Rodney's Wife. I don't think I was ever supposed to be anyone else's wife, just his. After much discussion, we discovered that our paths had crossed many times in our lives and we didn't even know it. And after what all we have been through, I can honestly say that I wouldn't want to be with anyone other than this man, Rodney Joe Huffer!!!!! No it's not the alcohol, but it has helped me to finally let go of that insecurity that I now have from a lifetime of piss-poor choices that I have made. So, maybe this mid-way that I speak of is not only for our move, but also for our (mine & Rodney's) relationship. God takes us to places that we can only imagine!!! And I kid you not!!!!! It seemed the more that Rodney & I prayed at night as a couple, the more close we would grow and if you all knew our history you would say that it was a miracle indeed!!!!! This makes me think that if we can do this, then anyone can. All you have to do is have the faith of a child, innocent & neverending and it can happen!!!!


As a woman, this is very overwhelming, but I'm hanging on. These are my kids, and this is my husband. As my hubby & I were sitting in our swing tonight, I asked him if he thought we were going through our second teenage-hood. He didn't know. We were very excited to get our kids out of our house and exploring this big 'ole world again. It makes me have hope and I look forward to the day when I can hog him all to myself again. I wouldn't want to be with anyone else in this world than him!!!!!

End of another week, or the start of a new one?

Weekends. Where have they all run off too? It seems like I go from running the kids all week long, to tackling whatever needs to be tackled on Saturdays, then church (which is a must for me, it helps me to maintain sanity) on Sunday and finish tackling whatever DIDN'T get tackled on Saturdays, just so I can start the ENTIRE INSANE CYCLE again on Monday!!!!! I did receive some good news from Rachel today. Apparently the band will no longer be having late evening practice (8pm) & no more early morning practices (0630). So, I get to sleep in a little while longer and maybe I can get those black bags under my eyes tackled!!!! So, now Rachel just has Cougarettes & ROTC things that will be going on till we move and Anthony has football & ROTC & Garett just has ROTC & A LOT of Dr appts due to his knee injury and surgery!!! No big deal, right? Rodney should be home this next week and I have a very BAD feeling that everything that I have totally shoved down inside of me for the past 4 months is going to come up and out like horrible, nasty and distasteful verbal vomit. Any tips &/or prayers on this matter would be especially helpful & totally wanted!!!!!! It's not his fault, he did everything he should and could do. I just need to deal!!!! And maybe get a massage and foot rub and anything else that will help me to chill...

I don't know why this time away was any different or worse than any other. Could my tollerance level be low? The kids are getting older and starting to think for themselves more instead of just doing what I tell them. Now they want to discuss it and argue. I've already had to ground one child from talking. Yes, you heard me. She couldn't keep a respectful tongue in her head, so she was forbidden to speak. By the way, it works and if she broke it, she started over. This was the same child who had her room stripped down to nothing. The amazing thing about that was her grades totally shot UP!!!!! I couldn't believe it. I threatened to do it to the other 2. I guess the boys believe me when I say I'm going to do something. I made a believer out of Rachel too. I have a funny feeling Garett is going to be next. He must be feeling his testesterone or something, his last warning was the other day. Anthony knows just where the line is and makes it a point to not step on it. Are these 3 the reasons for my stress or do they play a small part in the big pie of me stressing out? The military itself with it's endless paperwork, red tape and it's seemingly teadious rules is a good chunk of it. With Rodney being gone, & our transfer looming in the distance and I have 2 children that are ADHD, I had to get enough paperwork filled out by various Drs that I killed AT LEAST 2 trees by myself. By the way, did I mention that I work a full time, 40 hour a week J O B? So let me recap-we have endless extracurricular activities, Dr appts for children & self, endless paperwork that took all 4 months to get completed & turned in, and a job that requires me to be on campus 40 hours a week (minimum). Oh and don't forget just the regular day to day things that go on in a woman's life. You know, the house, laundry, cooking, cleaning. Guess what the first thing to go was? Yea, I'm stressed!!!!!!

So, here we are again...

Seems to be my life story. Get something taken care of & instantly, there will be another crisis or priority that will quickly replace the time that I thought I would be getting back. Not that I'm griping, but we sure are a very busy family. With Rodney still gone & there is still no end in sight I think I am feeling the pressure & weight of all of our responsibilities. I think if one more thing gets added, I might break. Football SHOULD be rounding down, but knowing us, we will make play offs. Just when I thought I would have some more time, we have also made it in the next level towards state with the marching band. And, if that wasn't enough, I'm sure we will start physical therapy soon for the knee that was operated on. So, I will, as I often do, suck it up, deal with it & hope that I don't get fired, because my job is feeding us while we try to buy a house at our next duty station. Be prepared, it might get a little gripy in here.